2026-09-11 02:47:23
I forgive you.
No less. No more.
As easy as that.
My life is measurably better knowing that. I just never said it. So here it is:
I forgive you.
I wake up next to my beautiful wife every morning. It's the best feeling in the world. Seeing our daughter grow up around us. Seeing us grow old together. Little scars of life, bit by bit. Memories. Good. Bad.
Life is beautiful. Each day a blessing. Tomorrow it might be over, and I am at peace because I know I spent it with the people I love and care about the most.
Every second.
Every look into my wife's eyes.
Every kiss.
Every hug.
Every connection with friends and family.
Every heartache, shared.
Every day sharing the unknown together.
Good or bad.
I forgive you.
— Vincent
2026-09-07 04:40:47
Today I start my new journey in life.
Going all in on fitness.
This has been a 2 year journey now. It's time.
There is nothing like actually having to turn up and do something hard and enjoyable. Consistently. Day after day. I love using my hands, I love lifting heavy things, and feeling stronger week by week.
When I don't exercise, I fall into a weird space. Creativity becomes zero, my ambition goes down to zero, and I lack a certain something in me.
A lot of me time was glued to the computer — mainly out of necessity and making things work. I learned so much. I am forever grateful for all the skills I have. And those will continue to be used, there is no change to my existing projects or work. This will bring both my love for fitness and programming together. I'll call it a marriage. This required a bit of a rethink on priorities — I am not perfect and fucked up too many times with my obligations, but this year has been a dramatic shift on making it work (the past 3 months really felt like I finally turned things around after a bit of unsureness).
I am listening to my gut. In fact, a lot of things this and last year have come from the gut. Who knew you had such a powerful tool to your use. Not so sure about the brain... hmmm.
Things have turned around for me as I turned 40, and I made myself a promise — I want to honour that to myself and my family. I'm probably at 44% of my lifespan — so I got a bit to go on I hope.
There will be different phases, and I already started this some time ago... and it's not just "software" — although it's kinda a first dip into the sea to help me with my own fitness goals and build from there.
Training first, software complementary to achieve my goals, and dabbling into personal training. And I hope that I can help a few people away from the screen to achieve their own goals. Back to the real world. Doing real things. Doing hard things. Turning up.
That should run me for the next 10 years.
❤️💪
— Vincent
2026-09-04 01:56:24
The kiddo went back to school yesterday.
Today was her second day.
During the holidays I reflected on how that change of schedule would feel like once it's back to the usual routine.
And routine it is.
We've all quite enjoyed it.
Back to normal.
What holidays?
2026-08-15 05:58:17
I've been working on a personal thing this past week, leading to many times where I went to bed at 5AM.. sitting at the computer. Sigh.
My wife quoted: 'Computer says no.'
Just now she said I spend too much time on my computer and reminded of the fact that I told her this exact thing, and that I should go to bed at a normal hour.
It's actually all quite depressing. I love computers. I also hate them.
This weekend, swimming pool and sun tanning as we catch the last heatwave we can see for the summer holidays.
— Vincent
P.S. My wife is amazing. ❤️
2026-08-15 03:01:30
Last week we went on a little holiday to the seaside. Mostly just driving and then being lazy by the beach, and the balcony of our hotel that faced the sun. We also visited Hel, the Peninsula in Poland. Fantastic. I think sometimes it's super easy to forget what you have right on your doorstep. I really love Poland. I'm from England, and I never want to go back if I'm honest. On the way we stayed in Olsztyn. Around a 6 hour drive from us, but didn't want to push the 8 hours.
What a beautiful place. Really fell in love! Unsure if we will explore this love more, but my, wow. Every fibre in my body just came out screaming in love. They also had a lovely little airport there, gliders above us as they launched, and I bought a new Hawaiian shirt there. I don't have pictures. It's just a feeling. Everything felt fantastic. Even the "commercial" hotel — they had a nice little gym there that I used and the restaurant was nice — I got a burger with nice beef. Good enough for me. We arrived in the evening so it was quiet. The morning was also quiet as we left.
Family time is precious. I want to do more like this, even if a pre-teenager is a handful (who does everything against you).
Before we left, I set up my machine so I can remote into it from my phone. I don't have a laptop and thought this might be a bit of a sore spot in general. I don't really like keeping my customers hanging. Thankfully it all worked well, even a minor few things. I just used my phone to work on a few minor things and features. What a great feeling to be free from having to sit at the computer. I think I spent a few hours just on a few fixes here and there — which I think is good, because I just like doing this kind of stuff whilst the ladies are busy doing their lady things.
Whilst holidays are great, and that having kids are "trying", it's always great perspective what life is about.
Recently the weird part of the internet (or whatever you call that side these days) again blew up because of a person I'll call "Alfrid" — that's how'll associate these people (if you know The Hobbit, you know).
This holiday really brought it into perspective for me. These people have zero matter in my life anymore. I am so thankful. Maybe 3 years ago this meant something to me, but not anymore. It has zero effect. So, thank you Alfrid.
Being online, in a sense, is not life — it is not defining. You are what you are to your family and people closest to you. There is no sense in to appeasing 99.999988% of the planet. Never.
I'm really happy with everything that has happened over the past years. You have no idea. I find comfort in it, and humanity.
I'm doing good, life is fantastic now. Thank you all that support me through my projects — that's the 0.000000012% (even if it feels small, it's not). And my family, who have stuck with me all these years since I've been born. They know me best. They support me through everything. Family is what matters the most, even if sometimes things are weird.
I hope to do more holidays soon, even with school starting again for the kiddo soon.
With holidays I love to always think about where I am and where I'm going. I'm doing a lot of offline things that are just for me — my wife approves. That's all that matters.
I'm doing good. Life is good.
Peace and love.
✌️❤️
— Vincent
2026-07-31 02:57:48
Today I logged off.
It just happened. Body screaming.
Logged out. For good?
Reasons. Plenty.
Mind, body. Spirit. Important.
Projects aplenty, keeping busy. Growing. Happy.
Body building. Hard work. Loving it. More.
Family. Always.
Pivoting. Uncertainty, excitement. Physical.
Outside. Plenty.
❤️
