2026-03-29 13:53:25
"Too Good"
(feat. Rihanna)
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah
Look...I don't know how to talk to you
I don't know how to ask you if you're okay
My friends always feel the need to tell me things
Seems like they're just happier than us these days
Yeah
These days I don't know how to talk to you
I don't know how to be there when you need me
It feels like the only time you see me
Is when you turn your head to the side and look at me differently
Yeah
And last night I think I lost my patience
Last night, I got high as your expectations
Last night, I came to a realization
And I hope you can take it
I hope you can take it, oh
I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
No, I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
I don't know how to talk to you
I just know I found myself getting lost with you
Lately you just make me work too hard for you
Got me on flights overseas, and I still can't get across to you
And last night I think I lost my patience
Last night, I got high as your expectations
Last night, I came to a realization
And I hope you can take it
I hope you can take it, oh
I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
No, I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
Years go by too fast
I can't keep track
How long did we last?
I feel bad for asking
It can't end like this
We gotta take time with this
Cock up yuh bumper, sit down pon it
Let me see if this is something I can fix (Six)
You got somebody other than me
Don't play the victim when you're with me
Free time is costing me more than it seems
Sacrificing things
And I wanna tell you my intentions
I wanna do the things that I mention
I wanna benefit from the friendship
I wanna get the late night message from you, from you
I put my hands around you
Gotta get a handle on you
Gotta get a handle on the fact that I
I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
No, I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
Gyal a you mi waan
Pay fi yuh visa meck yo fly out regular
Baby, cock up yuh bumper, sit down pon it
Gyal yo pum pum good and yuh fit
Mi wi give you everything weh deh in my wallet
And in my pocket
Cock up yuh bumper, sit down pon it
Gyal yo pum pum good and yuh fit
Mi wi give you everything weh deh in my wallet
And in my pocket
J Cole admits he be lying in his songs saying he think he’s the best
— Whooping feet (@WhoopingFeet) March 27, 2026
“It’s a persona & I really be having people believing that ish”
“In real life if u ask me if im the best no, I just put on that cape”
Black Thought, Kendrick Lamar, Lupe etc are better on any given day pic.twitter.com/h9SiCS8yfe
UFC Fight Night: Adesanya vs. Pyfer Featherweight
@stylebender you’re still the goat bro !! ❤️
— zayn (@zaynmalik) March 29, 2026
world is getting crazier:
催醒状态可以评判各种感官对于神经意识的贡献强度 听觉 视觉 嗅觉 触觉 听觉是频率的时间序列 大脑不太敏感 可能是因为一维数据 这里说的是除去时间之外 更好理解点 因为时间对于所有感觉来说都是一个坐标轴xaxis 视觉是二维数据 图像 经过加工处理才有了近大远小的三维感觉 所以总体来说是消耗算力最大的 嗅觉人本来不太敏感 睡觉环境前后不太影响 触觉是三维物体的重构 感觉消耗算力甚至会更多 但是可能由于不常用 总之我感觉视觉是最需要大脑的 所以几乎只有睁开眼睛才是最主要的从催醒状态抽离的时刻
《Hey Jude》就是英版《Sweet Caroline》 #CityTheChampions 赢了The English Football League Cup
都2026年了,出差开会还需要背电脑,我以为精简到手机就像U盘那样 随身能携带同时即插即用,有个显示器连上手机就能使用办公,很多平板早就可以啊 一个手机就走到哪都可以了 办公也用不了多少算力消耗,即使需要也可以显示器和手机协同优化 总之展示出手机的多功能便携性
而已 说白了 大不了 总之一句话
人类社会版的贝叶斯更新 + 原型匹配:半数靠刻板影响(群体层面的统计规律),屡试不爽,是一个不断收集数据丰富数据库 纠正拟合形象化 的过程。或许put it ino words: 刻板印象(stereotype)本质上就是大脑为了节省计算资源,快速建立的粗糙但高效的先验模型。
大多数时候有些人付出了很大的代价,造成重大的一种局面,周围的人才会不得不接受到这些信息,然后部分人会内化为教训。但这也并不是常态。《论语·里仁》中所谓'见贤思齐焉,见不贤而内自省也'
Jcole 依旧是 BOOM BOOM BOOM,依旧是 X Y Z
没有什么“one man against all odds”的浪漫说法,事出必有因。就像中小学被抓到考试作弊时,老师总会批评学生“为什么要作弊”,答案其实再简单不过:这是最短路径,付出很少努力就能轻易拿到不配得的高分,这就是“蒸馏”的艺术。against all odds也是一样,为什么会陷入against all odds的境地?因为自己确实存在短板,被对手、教练组、odds maker和大众的眼光精准窥视到了。还是像之前提到的UFC 280 Islam对Charles那一战,连续卫冕的冠军在下一场冠军战中反而被不看好,这到底是odds maker的错,还是大众选择的错误?当挑战者在冠军战中成为fav时,最好相信odds,因为这背后展示的是一种势不可挡的potential。尽管当下champ的地位更高,具有更大的y值,但dy/dx——上升的斜率——已经明显不如challenger。同样的逻辑也出现在Zhang Weili对Carla Esparza,以及Ilia Topuria一路“屠杀”的过程中。Volk经常讲很多underdog的叙事,但真正称得上宏伟且可重复的underdog事迹其实并不多,很大部分胜利依赖的是fate和luck。当然,韧性和运气这两面都毫无疑问值得applause,但underdog每次被贴上这个标签,其实都在无声地透露背后的信息……原因很简单,包装成underdog的叙事,核心主线就是抱紧永不放弃的这种思想大腿,这当然是政治正确的旗帜,一路势不可挡。QUOTE JCOLE: Bitch u was good in school, why u hiding your intelligence?
人似乎总是容易被那些“正确”的谎言所困住——它们往往出自高高在上的学者、教授与专家之口。那些冠冕堂皇的“教诲”,究竟是出于善意、分享真知的慷慨,还是有意将你引向另一条道路,以免触及他们的核心利益、进而加固自身的护城河?一个更具层次的例子,便是当下大行其道的“学科交叉”叙事。人们常说,在这个时代,来自不同领域的人聚集在一起,他们各自的能力雷达图相互碰撞,便能擦出火花,共同成就“六边形战士”的效果。可为什么不能是“one man army”?一个人,也是path 六边形全 Demis Hassabis 便是:从生物学到物理学,再到计算机科学,他以一己之力完成了这种跨越。那种路径听起来或许痛苦——需要成倍的付出、远超常人的工作量。随着时间推移,越来越成熟,积累的素材越来越丰富,它们自然会相互联想、激发更深刻的思考。思考本身就需要肥沃的土壤和充足的原料。三个臭皮匠 胜过诸葛亮?
很早之前就有些思考,每次大厂的LLM model release之后都有人在Internet上面发什么前端死了,程序员失业了,或者breaking XX行业要消失了…… 引起FOMO的是更多人担心工作被AI代替,后面就有不同观点涌现,“你的工作不是被AI取代,而是被使用AI的人取代”,这是一种积极拥抱的思想,但本身似乎像是揭开FOMO面纱之后的事实,失控风险或者局限一定存在,但是一般下游行业还不至于担忧这些,目前需要revisit一下,what i can do , what's the goal? what i need to do
交新朋友就像配置新电脑设备一样 还得详细介绍 不止是一句话的问题 时长不短 以后直接用history.md吧
为什么attention这个词一开始之前就是pay啊 本来就意识到这是种货币?(早在中世纪英语里,“pay”就用来表示“给予某物” ) 每次看到别人电脑浏览器标签页打开就是360或者其他的,满屏幕各种词条,新闻或者热搜,花边新闻滚动的图片,一切都需要你的attention,但是比较这个和空白的Google,就像是发达国家视角下的东南亚,中国,越南,印度,满屏幕密密麻麻的垃圾,日本称自己为欧洲。
Ye’s ‘Bully’ Album

Free time is costing me more than it seems
Sacrificing things
And I wanna tell you my intentions
I wanna do the things that I mention
I wanna benefit from the friendship
I wanna get the late night message from you, from you
I put my hands around you
@justinsuntron
·
7h
我知道你对未来有很多不确定
其实不是
未来已经发生了
只是你尚未察觉
未来10年
人类的寿命会达到150岁
是真的
未来10年
人人都将获得足够的财富与自由
是真的
未来10年
人类的生活将会比之前任何时代都幸福
是真的
再给AI一些时间,一些耐心,一些包容
现在你唯一需要做的就是
好好活着
Do nothing
Don't die.
It seems like everyone is obsessed with productivity and efficiency yet rarely get anything meaningful done. I'm convinced your best work is done when you're not working. When you have space for creative ideas to emerge that drastically change the trajectory of your life/work.
— DAN KOE (@thedankoe) March 28, 2026
Competition is largely an illusion. 95% of people don't even try to do great things. 0.1% of the people are loud, so you overestimate how many people there are. The rest get stuck worrying about competition and quitting after 2 weeks.
— DAN KOE (@thedankoe) March 27, 2026
Habits so simple you think they’re not worth doing, but have a profound impact on your life:
— DAN KOE (@thedankoe) March 26, 2026
- Not touching your phone when you wake up
- Not thinking about work after work is done
- Putting a book down once you find an idea worth thinking about
- Setting aside time to do…
The moment you stop waiting on others is the moment things start moving.
— Georges St-Pierre (@GeorgesStPierre) March 28, 2026
Sebastian Mallaby's new book on Demis Hassabis and DeepMind otw.
you my e-twin
Thanks for being an insider till the end!
Till next , stay safe and stay hydrated!
2026-03-22 16:01:06
Yeah
If being a good man was easy, I still be me
I do shit the hard way
Don't know who's who
My girlfriend hates me deep down
Maybe I do, too
We used to jack shit in the morning
Cuz most men didn't have cash when work done
This type of going to have your jawline thinner
Man going...
↩️
Jack Harlow
R&B/灵魂乐·2026年

Smart, loyal, and real pretty, we can build somethin'
But first, I got work to do
So when I'm spendin' nights locked in on that mic', please, don't take it personal
My skills is growin', the flows more versatile
My name's ringin' and on the evenin', I heard the news
I'm gettin' a deal, the first one I called was you
Even though we been off-and-on a few years
And through tears on rainy nights that you would wipe
I always knew that we'd be doin' life
Bitch, you was good
in school, why you
hidin' your
intelligence?
JCole在red lether里面和 Life Sentence里面都提到了temptation 鲁迅: 男人有两大爱好:拉良家妇女下水,劝风尘女子从良
The temptation of other lovers is a hard one
To overcome when you're young and your star's done
A line that women that wouldn't give you time is callin' you fine
Lust creeps all through your mind, I'm tryin' my hardest
To remember why I'm an artist
Is it for bitches and the riches?
You all suspicious, and you should be
I'm doin' dirt, but it's not as much as I could be
That make me feel better
I'm driftin' away slowly, that make you feel bitter
The Devil on my shoulder tellin' me, "Quit her"
Angel on the opposite side sayin, "Stick with her"
God tellin' me pick whichever is in my heart
Looked inside myself to a place beyond thought
And found out who I want to be
Slowly, but surely he cut off his hoes
If you gon' do it, do it right
Put ring on your finger, now, me and you is doin' life
Me: I need love songs and good new AMAP.
后面两个都好理解,Comidians都是一些同行,Joe自己再Austin自己也开了一个俱乐部,官方网站也有点玩梗,很多UFO和ET的元素,充满阴谋论的感觉,但是总体是古怪搞笑的。MMA Boxing fighters更不用说,就是这Business里面的。fighters一般都是再取得里程碑的成就或者重大的胜利之后会过来,也会过了很久才会来一次,和炒作“带货”没多大关系,这后两种comedy的一般对话都很搞笑,MMA的内容则是都是很熟,就是闲聊聊,欣赏别人,分享分享幕后看不到的故事和见闻,当然最有价值的还是发自内心的思考输出。说到这里,想起来很久没有Umar和Yiri的比赛,Yiri has the date but not Umar. It's Eday. 其余的三类,每次过来大部分情况下都是有点“期望”或者“任务”,比如说明星的新作品新电影上线,但是这种稍微少些,毕竟Industry还是主流的流媒体,更偏向于民主党,大多数情况下都不会过来,but honsetly who give a shit. 还是有很多没有偏向的celeb会常来,本身就和政治无关,而且如果因为政治形态意识相左就抵触或者cancel, 这本身也挺无趣的,至少lack independence也自证了自身也没啥价值。然后就是一些政治人物,像DJT和JD这种在去年是“天时地利人和”比较少见的,更多是一些governer,过来也有做一些推荐,“宣言”对话,至少是一个平台来表达,但是之于deliver or not就是另一个故事了,但是确实会有更多的了解,似乎一般不会总是坏事。最后,就是我觉得最有价值的——有特殊或者丰富经历经验的普通或者小众的职业工作人员 具体来说,有一些科学家,教师,科技行业从业者,医生,律师,作家等等,比如在3ATLAS的时候邀请过来了哈佛的那个比较阴谋论的院长。还有很多例子,比如vaccine的研发的医生,或者称之为scientist or whatever... 总之会有特定背景下比较特别的故事或者视角,有价值的地方在于这两三个小时之内,很多人几乎将人生中或者职业生涯的很多大事件都倾倒出来,像是短篇小说,或者说章节,又像是一些沉浸的短途旅程。
It’s 2am again, my favourite time, and as always reality is still staring me in the face 🧐 https://t.co/2lbKG7FZSX
— Demis Hassabis (@demishassabis) March 21, 2026
yes agreed, there are tough constraints in the computational substrate.
— Demis Hassabis (@demishassabis) March 19, 2026
How Teen Mathematician Hannah Cairo Disproved a Major Mathematical Wave Conjecture
ai-5-layer-cake blogs.nvidia March 10, 2026 by Jensen Huang 前面在一次采访中是Jensen可能将那几天的思考就脱口而出分享给现场,说AI分五层infra,详细解释各种资源之间的关系,我估计那就是第一次差不都成形但不成熟的思考,然后这不最近可能又开会交流之后比较成熟了,将这个思考以blog形式发表在Nvidia官网。#milestone
似乎在2022-23年那会,vscode不知道是本身有新功能还是插件,就是会在打出一段文字后自动补写代码 敲击tab即可接收结果,像是最初的LLM,到后来科学技术写作或者文献记录都会更容易的焕发联想
i appreciate ur honesty. J dope
I see u conflicted
想起来胡渊鸣的Taichi太极图形 (in case udk :胡渊鸣 清华大学姚班学士与麻省理工学院博士,太极图形(Taichi Graphics)的创始人,硅谷AI公司Meshy AI的创始人。) 太极的logo就有太极的元素:https://yuanming.taichi.graphics/publication/2021-taichi-thesis/
太极☯️图的logo 阴阳两相混沌的状态 太极☯️图本质上描绘的不是黑白对立的静态图案,而是一种动态的、未分前的混沌统一:阴阳两仪交融、你中有我、我中有你,整个圆圈才是完整的“太极”,鱼眼的设计,纯阴之中藏着阳的种子,纯阳之中藏着阴的潜能,一切都在无尽循环流动,没有绝对的界限。在没有被具体语境、他人目光或社会标签“观测”之前,人性是混沌的、多重可能的、矛盾并存的,就像量子叠加态,各种可能性同时存在;一旦进入特定场景(职场、亲密关系、道德审判、社交媒体等),就被迫塌缩,从无限可能瞬间坍缩成一个可被命名、可被理解的确定状态:忠诚的、虚伪的、君子、小人、进步的、落后的……tag label 但这个塌缩只是当时的投影,不是完整本体,真正的本体仍是那个未被锁死的、流动的太极态。
几个尖锐的例子正好映照这种矛盾:“君子报仇,十年不晚”与“君子坦荡荡、里外如一”看似对立,前者要求极致隐忍与伪装十年,表面可能卑躬屈膝、笑脸迎人,内心却酝酿反杀,这十年里里外完全不一致,却被民间智慧视为君子的更高形态,只有不被单一道德语境锁定,它才不坍缩成悖论;忠诚也可以只是“扮演”,区别仅在时长——一个人可以忠诚十年、二十年,第21年因新利益、伤害或觉醒而彻底翻转,只要扮演足够久,社会就会视其为“真”,这与量子叠加相似,没被极端情境戳破前,它维持在忠诚与潜在背叛的叠加态;Dave Chappelle 可以不anti-LGBTQ,Drake 可以feminist,“尊重”也可以演,公众人物的立场与人设往往是语境坍缩的产品,在某个时期、某个受众前塌缩成某种形象,换个窗口或利益结构就能重置,而真正“earned”的respect,是在多次极端测量(背叛、诱惑、危局)后仍保持一致的稀有状态,几乎是统计上的小概率事件。
宽容是表演,在需要拉拢中间派、维护高尚形象时演得淋漓尽致;cancel 是本能,当道德或权力高地感受到威胁,便塌缩成纯粹的攻击模式,阳(消灭异见)压倒阴(包容对话);双标则是默认设置,同一行为发生在盟友身上是“context matters”“年轻不懂事”,发生在对家身上就是不可饶恕的原罪。

ICEMAN!!!
I need love songs and good new AMAP. my bad
Wishing you all the peace
Thanks for being an insider till the end!
Till next , stay safe and stay hydrated!
2026-03-08 18:35:39
Casino (stylized as Ca$ino) is the second studio album by American rapper Baby Keem. It was released by PGLang and Columbia Records on February 20, 2026.
这个季度很好了,21,Baby Keem都有new albums,Drazzy的ICEMAN也在路上了。

重要的是JCole也是不久前dropped。难免会有点对比。
CaSino没有the fall off那么宏大,算是比较精巧的 11tracks, 主题也比较丰富,其中几个是有点casino元素的,就像是去游乐场玩,那么多的设施,在每个娱乐设施前面都会触景生情,有思考感悟写下来,然后还有特征性的元素,比如游戏机的声音等等。虽然没有“人生大片”,CaSino是精彩刺激的短片
话题也比较多 有关于母亲那段的对话,sad,包括家庭创伤 成长环境 炫富/赌场意象

Let all the water fall over my lazing
Never gets a drop on me
Endure all of the revelry, you gotta come
Dramatic girl (Dramatic girl)
The world is vast (The world is vast)
Unapologetic (Unapologetic)
I wish you well (I wish you well)
Take off the mask (Take off the mask)
And your disguise (And your disguise)
I see your lies (I see your lies)
A problem girl (A problem girl)
My day was low (Day was low)
Her family knows (Her family knows)
She has her vices, who am I to judge?
She's tucked away (She's tucked away)
Somewhere remote (Somewhere remote)
I've been enlightened (I've been enlightened)
The sweetest girl
There's more than one way you should love me, uh
I need you findin' that explosion (Explosion)
We drew blood in the ocean (Ocean)
I've been hidin' in the open (Open)
There's more than one way you should love me, uh
I need you findin' that emotion (Emotion)
We drew blood in the ocean (Ocean)
I've been hidin' in the open (Open)
Is it that deep?
Swimmin' in the water, know it's six feet deep
Can you show me more love? We'll see (More love)
Can you show me more love? We'll see
We'll see, yeah, is it that deep?
Swimmin' in the water like it's 3D
Can you show me more love? We'll see
Can you show me more love? We'll see
There's more than one way you should love me (There's more, there's more, there's more)
I need you findin' that explosion (Explosion, uh)
We drew blood in the ocean (Ocean)
I've been hidin' in the open (Open)
There's more than one way you should love me (You should love, love, love)
I need you findin' that emotion (Emotion; Aha, ah-ah)
We drew blood in the ocean (Ocean; In the o-oh-oh)
I've been hidin' in the open (Open; Aha, ah-ah)
You been on my mind for so long
I keep writin' love songs, I keep singin' love songs (Ooh-hoo)
I know we haven't spoke in so long, I've been writin' love songs
I've been singin' love songs (Ooh-hoo)
There's more than one way you should love me (You should love, love, love)
I need you findin' that explosion (Explosion; Aha, ah-ah)
We drew blood in the ocean (Ocean; In the o-oh-oh)
I've been hidin' in the open (Open; Ah-ha, ah, ah)
There's more than one way you should love me (Love, love, love)
I need you findin' that emotion (Emotion; Aha, ah-ah)
We drew blood in the ocean (Ocean; In the o-oh-oh)
I've been hidin' in the open (Open; Aha, ah-ah)
Girl-girl-girl-girl-girl
Dance-dance-dance-dance-dance
In essence, Deresiewicz posits that an "interesting" person is one who is not just technically proficient or highly accomplished, but one who is self-governed, capable of deep thought, and has a rich, independent inner life.
A startup is 1% idea + 99% execution
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The Fall-Off is Inevitable
周五中午后Jm结束,安静、反思、感恩的心境,把手机断网调成勿扰,Apple Music 点开 The Fall-Off,从头放到尾。双手抱肘,找出对应的lyrics,网页applemusic同步播放。很多时候阅读或者观看(电影、纪录片、比赛直播……),你的重视程度直接影响沉浸体验,从而直接影响你真正吸收内化多少内容、质量,有点像那句 Oh, I love, love has been called a losin' game
But the more that I love, the more I gain 越投入、越爱、越沉浸,反而收获越多。“掉落与重生”叙事,和精神节奏对齐。
标星的7首 7/24 是:
The Fall-Off is Inevitable
Quik Stop
Only You
Life Sentence
39 Intro
WHO TF IZ U
and the whole world is the Ville
intro : 阳光 家乡 谈笑风生挺好的 然后最后突然急促的枪声 一下喘不上气
这次国区过申挺快的 利索且完整上线 大概率是因为歌词还没online 所以都上来 有些curse words还没有处理
She Got The Type Of Thang You Can’t Even Find No More
They Play The Type Of Games I Don’t Be Around No More
%#Chorus 部分应该弄些孩子齐唱
[Chorus]
Ooh, Will We Survive The Let Out? Will We Survive The Let Out?
Will We Survive The Let Out? Will We Survive The Let Out?
Oh, Will We Survive The Let Out? Will We Survive The Let Out?
Will We Survive The Let Out? Will We Survive The Let Out?
Only You 和 Life Sentence 放一起听,爱情与忠诚。Life Sentence 是“判了自己终身刑,但甘愿”,Only You 。欠你耐心、欠你花、欠你一起看烂片、欠你时间。
Quik Stop 是Cole 在加油站被陌生人拦住,那人说从小听他的歌长大,兄弟被杀了,是 Cole 的歌陪他熬过来的。生活重复到麻木——做 beat、抽一口、刷手机、追人、睡醒、再来一遍。但这一切不是白干的。
39 Intro 其实就是一段话,39岁了,回家,盘点这一路。上面也没什么了不起的。整张专辑都在说一句话:The fall-off is inevitable。掉下来不是失败,是自然规律。关键是掉下来的时候,带了什么回去。
WHO TF IZ U 只一句“WHO TF IZ U”
and the whole world is the Ville 是最后一击。全世界再大,也逃不出内心的那个 Fayetteville。
What If,Cole 用 Biggie 和 2Pac 的视角做跨时空对话:如果没有那些BS,你们会不会还活着?跟 21 Savage 的 I Wish 很像——21 Savage 是对失去的亲人/兄弟穿越时空的倾诉(wish I could go back, wish I could save you)。
Love is a candle wick in rain
After the storm, we're still a flame
Oh, I love, love has been called a losin' game
But the more that I love, the more I gain
Cole 把这张当成自己的 GOAT,它几乎萃取了他到29-39岁为止的所有重要课题:
The fall-off is inevitable。整体上,最喜欢的是Life Sentence.
Life Sentence
lyrics
Realest shit I wrote (Doin' life)
Realest shit I wrote (We doin' life)
Realest shit I wrote
This be the realest shit I wrote
Realest shit I wrote
Realest shit I wrote
Be the realest shit I wrote (Doin' life), yeah
For all my niggas doin' life with they day one
Who held it down when the credit wasn't A1?
You thankin' God, you was lookin' for a great one
He took a rib out your chest and He made one
To be a man and hold it down, take a brave one
When the hoes come around and you crave somethin'
My flow switch, slow the pace, this the Ma$e one
I'm not a player but I'm crushin' like the late Pun
Let's take one, go
The definition of rider
The one by my side when I had not a dollar to my name
Before a crowd would holler for Jermaine, you saw potential
Waitin' on you to hit my line was suspenseful
Back when we was kids, this was simple
Boy likes girl, girl got a man
Boy stays in lane, maybe provides a friend
Knowin' by the end buddy gon' fumble
Was far from the toughest around, buddy gon' rumble
When necessary, when niggas started talkin' reckless
Did he not step to them niggas with chest poked out?
Over you, that 'Ville come out, no doubt
We fell in love, but my dreams you ain't know 'bout
You knew I rap, but, you ain't know 'bout both of my goals
Wanna take over the globe through a mic'
And one day me and you be doin' life
All types of games are being played, how's it goin' down? (Yeah)
It's on 'til it's gone and I gots to know now (Yeah)
Is you with me or what? A nigga really think he in love (Uh-huh)
I put this ring on you forever, what's up?
All types of games are being played, how's it goin' down? (Yeah)
It's on 'til it's gone and I gots to know now (Yeah)
Is you with me or what? A nigga really think he in love (Uh-huh)
I put this ring on you forever, what's up? (We doin' life)
Uh, the puppy love had grown and now it's full blown
Since childhood, I vowed to have a good home
White picket fence with wife cookin'
Yellow rice for a couple kids that's nice lookin'
And I promise to treat her right
Unlike what I had seen in my life as examples, marriages in shambles
And I can tell I found a real one
Smart, loyal, and real pretty, we can build somethin'
But first, I got work to do
So when I'm spendin' nights locked in on that mic', please, don't take it personal
My skills is growin', the flows more versatile
My name's ringin' and on the evenin', I heard the news
I'm gettin' a deal, the first one I called was you
Even though we been off-and-on a few years
And through tears on rainy nights that you would wipe
I always knew that we'd be doin' life
All types of games are being played, how's it goin' down? (Yeah)
It's on 'til it's gone and I gots to know now (Yeah)
Is you with me or what? A nigga really think he in love (Uh-huh)
I put this ring on you forever, what's up?
All types of games are being played, how's it goin' down? (Yeah)
It's on 'til it's gone and I gots to know now (Yeah)
Is you with me or what? A nigga really think he in love (Uh-huh)
I put this ring on you forever, what's up? (We doin' life)
The temptation of other lovers is a hard one
To overcome when you're young and your star's done
A line that women that wouldn't give you time is callin' you fine
Lust creeps all through your mind, I'm tryin' my hardest
To remember why I'm an artist
Is it for bitches and the riches?
You all suspicious, and you should be
I'm doin' dirt, but it's not as much as I could be
That make me feel better
I'm driftin' away slowly, that make you feel bitter
The Devil on my shoulder tellin' me, "Quit her"
Angel on the opposite side sayin, "Stick with her"
God tellin' me pick whichever is in my heart
Looked inside myself to a place beyond thought
And found out who I want to be
Slowly, but surely he cut off his hoes
If you gon' do it, do it right
Put ring on your finger, now, me and you is doin' life
All types of games are being played, how's it goin' down? (Yeah)
It's on 'til it's gone and I gots to know now (Yeah)
Is you with me or what? A nigga really think he in love (Uh-huh)
I put this ring on you forever, what's up?
All types of games are being played, how's it goin' down? (Yeah)
It's on 'til it's gone and I gots to know now (Yeah)
Is you with me or what? A nigga really think he in love (Uh-huh)
I put this ring on you forever, what's up? (We doin' life)
I done wrote a lot of songs, but this is gotta be my realest one
Shoutout to anybody that really know what it's like to do life with somebody
Through the ups, the downs, the goods, the bads, through thick and thin
In a time where they make it so easy to just give up
Know what I mean?
上帝从你胸口抽根肋骨造了她
J. Cole - "Life Sentence" 是2026年2月6日发行的专辑 The Fall-Off(Disc 39 的第5首歌,Track 17)。这首歌风格偏抒情、melodic。主题是献给长期伴侣妻子的“终身监禁”式爱情——不是牢狱,而是一生一世的承诺、忠诚、面对诱惑的挣扎,以及对“她一直hold me down”的感激。
“Life Sentence” 双关:表面像坐牢(doin' life),但其实指婚姻/爱情就是终生判决,甜蜜又沉重。
Cole 以第一人称,像写信给伴侣,回顾从青涩相识 → 成名后的诱惑 → 选择忠诚 → 最终感恩。
歌词很个人化,提到年轻时“星星刚升起”(stars done),外面无数女人主动贴上来,但她才是那个从一开始就支持他的人。
感谢 + 自省 + 承认人性弱点。
"Only You"
成功后fall-off,但家庭是不会掉的锚。
Sunny days, rainy nights, I know
Should be there for me, no matter what
If I miss your call, I'ma call back
Never too far, no, I'm never too far
Wherever you are, that's where I'm at (Show me where you are)
What's the point of bein' rich if I gotta do the dishes?
I give a fuck what niggas think about me
I know they couldn't know a thing about me
And my loyalty, she hold you down
And you gotta move accordingly
I got a good one, she feel like royalty
lyrics
Sunny days, rainy nights, I know
Should be there for me, no matter what
If I miss your call, I'ma call back
Never too far, no, I'm never too far
Wherever you are, that's where I'm at (Show me where you are)
I don't ever want you to regret these moves
Sometimes the win is hidden in the lose
I wish life was longer, like an interlude
I got way more songs I wanna sing with you
I thought I was strong, 'til I saw what you went through
The birth of my sons, and each time, my mind was blown
Yeah, each time, my mind was blown
I owe you patience and a lot of grace
I owe you flowers and a prodigy
I owe you time watching movies that I hate
I owe you chocolates and red velvet cake
Oh, wait, you don't like red velvet no more
Yeah, that's right, out of spite, hoes jealous of yours
Used to write about my life, but I ain't tellin' no more
Stay the fuck up out my business
Drop the triple-double last week at Lifetime Fitness
Bitch, wild shit, broke fingers, wrinkles gettin' soaked
What's the point of bein' rich if I gotta do the dishes?
I give a fuck what niggas think about me
I know they couldn't know a thing about me
And my loyalty, she hold you down
And you gotta move accordingly
I got a good one, she feel like royalty
I don't ever want you to regret these moves
Sometimes the win is hidden in the lose
I wish life was longer, like an interlude
I got way more songs I wanna sing with you
I thought I was strong, 'til I saw what you went through
The birth of my sons, and each time, my mind was blown
Yeah, each time, my mind was blown
Ooh
Ooh
Lonely nights with lots of money
Times I wish I had no money
How can I be sure you love me?
It's not like you're betting your best years on me
Best years on me
Best years on me
Do I like livin' like this?
Maybe I'm fine wasting my time
Beautiful eyes washed down with wine (Mmh)
Maybe it's time I accept my own
Orí bá, kò bá, kò
Orí bá, kò bá, kò
And it no easy
And I'm coming
Maybe it's time I accept you, ooh
Longing for
My baby to love me more
What am I longing for?
I'm not really secure
What am I longing for?
My baby to love me more
What am I longing for?
I'm not really secure
When, when, when, when
Can we see each other again? Hey
Hey Pa, I've been checking you out from long distance
Digging your existence, can I offer my assistance?
They say a dude is only as cool as his talk is
But I know that you real because your walk is
You got a beautiful smile, your heart's big as life
And it's full of gold, though you pay a heavy price
Nobody knows about the depression and the strife
And the fight to stand strong against women who entice
They don't respect your call, they don't respect your wife
You're tired, and you're weak, and you could blow it all tonight
'Cause everybody thinks that you're a man of steel
Like you don't hurt and you don't feel, but they wrong
I swear I've watched you keep yourself far from the drama
Taking many hits to your armor
I've seen you walk miles with the crown, but alone, you walked farther
Now walk into the arms of your father
And let him build you up and supply everythin' you've been needin'
I'm here watching, and I'm in a scene where you gon' make it, Pa
很多时候的想法是脑海里面的对话 字要是记录下来就没意思了 反而原本放在对话的句子里更有味道
context工程 ollama本地化模型之后可以用md本地存储 最长见的context就是阅读书籍了
Too critical for this shtt 一路上每一分钟都在judge,所见所想。联想到小学看图说话的写作,主要就是读出背后的故事:

能用只用疑问句写一篇文章小说? 疑问后面我们很多时候自己有自己的答案 或者公共的答案

把人生看作多维度游戏:身体(physical)、心智(mental)、精神(spiritual)、社交/冒险(social/adventure)、事业/创造(creative/business)等。很多人卡在“NPC模式”(Level 1:被动、随波逐流),目标是升级到“主角模式”(Level 2:主动塑造人生),甚至更高“程序员模式”(Level 3:设计和操控自己的现实系统)。强调 多维度强壮(multidimensionally jacked):不要只优化单一领域(如只健身或只赚钱),而是全面发展,形成 compound effect(复合效应)。
不稳定/波动(instability)不是敌人,而是锻造真实成长的熔炉,尤其在 creator economy / AI时代,拥抱波动、多元化收入、保持真实性才能脱颖而出。
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我们每个人的认知,都受自己的母语和原生文化的限制,当我们走出这个限制时,不仅会对世界产生新的认知,还可以反观自己的原生文化。出离母语,就是跳脱出习以为常的认知,用外界的眼光审视自身。
在本书中,作者以亲身走出母语的旅行为脉络,每一次旅行都是一个章节,生动展现了在不同语言环境下的所遇、所感与所思。让我们沿着作者的旅行足迹,共同探索挣脱母语束缚后的自由之态,畅想多种语言交织共存的可能空间。
“Exphony”是指超越母语的状态。对于长期在德语和日语中进行创作的作者来说,语言的越境正是文学的本质主题。越境中能够看到什么?这究竟如何定义了自己的文学?如同试掘自身立足点般敏锐的散文,映照了语言的闪光,重新定义了文学的存在方式。
据说,任何人出生时都具有听清所有语音并发音的潜在能力。也就是说,学习一种母语意味着扼杀了其他语言的可能性。甚至有实验结果表明,如果只听着日语长大,那么在出生后六个月内就会失去区分R 和L的能力。当然,以后重新学习也并非不可能,但就不那么容易了。相反,如果母语是欧洲语言,就会一度丧失听出汉语等语言中抑扬声调的能力,并且记忆汉字这种图形的能力也将越来越迟钝。
新生儿具备说所有语言的潜在能力,这太棒了。
但是,一旦保留了所有语言的潜在能力,那就一种语言也说不了。所以,极端地说,学会母语就意味着丧失说其他语言的能力,姑且只留一种。让人觉得有点可惜。长大后想学外语,是不是因为怀念婴儿时期舌头和嘴唇自由自在的活动呢?成年人尽管每天都说很多话,但是一边动用舌头寻找发音部位,一边结结巴巴地大声朗读外语教科书,把它当作舌头的舞蹈艺术不也很有吸引力吗?向各个方向翘曲、伸缩、敲击、呼气,灵活而柔软的舌头。构不成任何意义、只为寻找自由而尽情起舞的舌头。我的内心深处藏着对这种舌头的憧憬。但是,如果真有了这样的舌头,将得不到任何人的理解。所以不得已,姑且假装舌头半僵硬的单语言人,在和周围人的交流中生活下去。然而,背后难道不藏着对自由舌头的冲动吗?
同样在欧洲,自古以来,欧洲文明以外的人,即所谓的“野蛮人”,也是两种形象并存:残忍、恐怖的形象和纯真无邪的可爱形象。而且,欧洲确认自己二者都不是,自己给自己盖上“文明人”的图章。现在的日本人不是在做类似的事情吗?日本人给其他亚洲人贴个“仍然拥有自己曾经拥有的温暖人性的落后人群”的标签,实际上,不就是只想确认自己已经成了冷漠的发达国家的人吗?还有,日本人承认的不是自己所做的殖民侵略、破坏和杀戮的事实,而是别人的“温暖人性”,不就是想以此来偷偷地消除自己的罪恶感吗?
离别当天,首尔机场的公告牌上显示了许多飞往东京的航班名称和时刻。因为我没时间去日本,所以当我一边用余光看公告牌,一边去搭乘飞往巴黎的航班时,去不了东京的落寞和幸好不去东京的庆幸,两种心情微妙地掺杂在一起。
奥地利很看重作家,所以我来这里心情很好。而且,感觉他们的理念不是日本常见的“畅销即王者”,而是不畅销才更了不起。但这只限于和文化工作者在一起,一踏进闹市区,情况就不一样了。我心情愉快地离开了维也纳的艺术史博物馆,相机电池耗尽了,我想穿过环形交叉路口去买,却脚踝一扭摔倒在地。眼看着绿灯就要变红,我一着急想跑过去,却疼得跑不动。万幸的是,那一瞬间没有汽车驶来。我拖着疼痛无比的脚踝,坐到面对草坪的路边长凳上,无意中发现长椅上竟然密密麻麻地画满了纳粹万字符(“写”)的涂鸦。坐在这样的长椅上,自己也太惨了吧!可是,长椅只有这一处,我又疼得走不成路,只能在那里忍耐一段时间。这简直都成了一幅讽刺面。我坐在画满“写”的长椅上,是因为我来自曾经的纳粹的同盟国,还是因为我长着非雅利安人的脸,所以在当代奥地利可能是遭受迫害的一方?亦或者,通过现在待在可能受迫害的一方,从其实自己属于迫害者一方的苦闷中稍微解脱了一下?总之,这是一幅悲惨的滑稽画。
我以前一直以为语法是通过文字来学习的,只有在会话练习时才用到声音,然而似乎并非如此。
语法也和声音有很大的关系。小孩子在学习文字前就习得了语法。他们是通过韵律来掌握语法的。儿童似乎通过韵律就能感知词序,可分动词、冠词等语法的关键点。成年人在一定程度上也可以做到这一点:某处仍然留有像八分音符那样的位置,感觉上如果不放入某个介词,节奏就合不上了。
我以前写了篇随笔,谈论德语单词 “es”(相当于英语中的“it”)的不可思议性,有位住在瑞典的名为班特 •桑德伯格(Bengt Santberg)的语言学家,读了我这篇文章后,寄给我他的一部著作。他在书里写到,“es”有的用法常常从语义学角度完全无法解释,非常奇怪。当仅从语义角度作文时,偶尔会出现空白,而又不能把这空白当作休止符,所以有时会放入“es”。我的概括过于简略,从语言学的角度来看可能存在异议,但从个人感觉来说,我能理解“这个地方如果不放入一个词,就不对劲”的语感。
阅读诗歌和小说,需要有将语言画面化的能力。我觉得电台文化让我们通过听觉最大限度地发挥出把语言画面化的能力。所以,很多喜欢看书的人喜欢听收音机,不喜欢看电视。
我是1982年到汉堡的,当时我的听力应该与现在不同。我虽然在日本学了德语,但是听力能力并不强。如果借助字典,我可以进行高难度的阅读,语法和单词也能懂,想说的话也会说,但就是听不懂对方的话。这和婴儿正好相反。婴儿看不懂书,也不会说话,却能听懂别人的话。我自己单方面构造的句子即使语法上没问题,也只是理论上组合出来的,其中缺乏韵律的流动。慢慢地,我的听力越来越好,越来越容易听懂对方在说什么。我想,这不仅仅是因为可以听懂各个单词和短语,也是因为能在整体上把握韵律流动的缘故吧。
由于 “gender”(社会性别)不是生物学意义上的性别,所以大学里的讨论从“女性文学不同于男性文学”变成“即使是男作家的作品,从‘gender’上说,也可能是女性文学(而且,我们当时把自己喜欢的作家的‘gender’都归为‘女性’,管他是克莱斯特还是谁)”,结果问题还是没解决。后来,又出现了一种强烈的观点,认为不能完全忽视生物学上的性别。最后,我自己得出了一个一般性的见解,即“生物学的性别和社会学的性别都不容忽视,但无论哪种性别都不能用来限定作家”。德国有一个派别叫移民文学。
汉语在语法上和日语相去甚远,但日本引人了汉字,因而两者之间产生了某种亲近性。或许以前的语言学家会说,语法是“骨”,文字是“衣”。但在现代,有时只因穿了同款鞋就成了朋友,“骨”和“衣”两者都很重要。
从关系远近不同的语言上获得的灵感有质的不同。我看到中文,有一种似懂非懂的“错位”感,恍如梦中。我在北京的书店里买了本日汉小字典。里面说,“ ”是“眼花综乱”,而“気絕 ”是“昏过去”。原来“気絕”就是“过去一片昏暗”啊!仅此即成诗。我一时心血来潮写下这句妙语。熟悉的语词“咔哒”一声拆解重组,以新的面貌出现,新事物熠熠生辉。那是电光火石般的感觉,刹那间束缚大脑的链子猛然断开,那种快意有时会幻化成一串笑声。
对了,“美”这个汉字是怎么来的呢?记得在教参中读过这样的解释:“这个字是在中国沙漠地区产生的,对于那里的人来说,羊大为美,所以一个羊字加一个大字就是美。”不知道是真是假。德国有许多土耳其人经营的食品店,每当看到玻璃柜里的大块羊肉,我就不由地想,啊,那就是美!
有的人以为有了翻译,一切都可以跨境自由流通,那是大错特错的。这个世界的大多数文本要么还没被翻译,要么已经被误译。这么想着,我环顾四周,据说已变得单调的世界看起来流光溢彩。只能背着误译的包袱旅行。然而,翻译的错误和正确并不像谎言和真相那样对立。两者都是“翻译”,都是旅行,夸张地说,也许只是色彩不同而已。语言各不相同,不可能有完全正确的翻译。沼野先生还说到非常重要的一点,那就是不能因为有误译就认为作品整体译得不好。这也正是翻译的有趣之处。
因此,没有什么比寻找翻译错误更容易的了。哪怕是翻译“小白”,也能指摘资深翻译家的错误。这些指正有时确实也切中肯綮,但仔细想想,往往发现那并非错误,而是只有资深者才有的“绕远路”。
皮带叫 “der Gurtel”,说 “den Gurtel enger schnallen”(勒紧皮带)是抑制奢侈的欲望、节约的意思。看样子,腰带将人的身体分上下两部分,也具有比喻的作用。上部有头有脸,是理性的、公共的,下部则与消化、排泄和性交有关,是感性的、个体的。我自己不太赞成这种身体的二分化,但是世人似乎普遍这么认为。分隔两个世界的边界是“皮带线”(die Gurtellinie),因此,当笑话或谩骂过于露骨和粗俗,进入性领域时,就说它 “unter derGirtellinie”(在皮带线以下)。我总感觉这个成语太过于露骨和直接了。为什么比起说腰、肚脐、肚子之类的,说皮带让人觉得更直接呢,真是奇怪。
日本有“带(和服腰带)”,它与皮带不同,即便系紧也很软。相反,说“带 緩 (放松腰带)”,就是解除警惕,松了一口气的意思。不过,这个表达在现在的日本或许已经不那么普遍了。
“袖の下”(贿赂)这个说法经常使用。从袖子下面出来的东西,从哪里来、怎么来的,不太清楚。
给人一种可疑的感觉。比如政客把一捆捆的钞票偷偷地塞进自己的袖子里,与此相反,魔术师则从袖子里掏出鸽子或兔子。德语中有个说法叫 “aus demArmel schutteln”(从袖子里抖出来),意思是非常
轻松地完成某件事。
非母语写作古而有之。然而,对它的理解以及说明,一直用“移民”或“克里奥尔”,或“在日”或“后殖民地”等政治或经济的,即“外部”的因素进行阐释。比如,从苏联流亡的俄罗斯人用英文写作,被日本侵略而亡国的韩国人用日语写作,作为经济移民前往德国的土耳其人用德语写作。
跟随丈夫来到德国的美砂,竟然找理由一个人留在了这个国家。从第一次联系水管工到独自搬家至柏林,美砂缓慢搭建着自己的日常,却也发现时间渐渐漫无目的,成了没有标点的句子。新的尝试是每周一次的太极拳课程。当学到第三招“白鹤亮翅”时,美砂终于和拳馆的人熟络:拳馆教练陈老师、俄罗斯富豪阿廖娜、菲律宾英语教师罗莎琳德、德国牙医奥莉安……种种际遇接踵而至,姨舍传说里的残酷、远方战祸中的死亡、悄然发生的罪与罚,究竟哪种命运会来临呢?右手向斜上方抬起的同时,左手伸向地面。“白鹤亮翅”既是防守,也是进攻,正如美砂现在需要做的那样。
本诗集直接源于诗人成长和生活在长期封锁中的加沙,且经常被袭击的的经历。作为曾经的孩子、现在的父亲,以及多次军事袭击的幸存者,他见证了破坏和毁灭的残酷循环。但除了炮弹与无人机,这里也有茶香、盛开的玫瑰和日落时的海景。孩子们出生了,家庭延续着传统,学生上了大学,图书馆从废墟中崛起……巴勒斯坦人继续他们的生活,创造美丽,寻找新的生存方式。
📍等自己的真正理想的童年,不是被限制囚禁的童年。
我想它就待在那里等我,等到什么时候?也许是等我回到雅法,重新成为一个孩子的时候。
某种程度上作者也是被困住的人生,我能力不足以形容这种感觉,虽然加沙-巴勒斯坦的困境和伊拉克叙利亚“战争泥潭”不同,虽然这种诗集和侯赛因的那种《追风筝的人》、《灿烂千阳》类型不同,但是两位作者给我的状态比较相似,只是有一点点,能够用文字记录写作,讲述故事,即使似乎对于他们本身那个庞大的问题、困境无解,很遗憾,更无奈,个体太过渺小,即使通过写作这种手段表达,还是会感受到无奈、失望甚至绝望。
跳出来看,表达的故事和思考是深邃优美的,虽然读者不能身临其境,难以经历别人的生活,但是,但是,这些困境是只有他们有的吗?好像也不是,时间空间的尺度上,还有其他类似的矛盾或者故事,每想到这里,在这些思绪之前,我脑海中强烈地浮现出一句话,南非叔叔的一句 papa, what's the point?
整理下类似主题的故事,从相关性强弱排序:
已读过的《柠檬树》 :
已看过的电影《唯有追忆 اللي باقي منك (2025)》
村在天堂边 The Village Next to Paradise (2024)
Thanks for being an insider till the end!
Till next , stay safe and stay hydrated!
2026-02-01 12:00:00
2026年1月15日 : 早上起来jcole dropped a sniper of the coming new album -- the fall off , Disc 2 Track 2
嵌套式的一框框的场景,倒放了人生,摘掉戒指, 初见the love 再到最开始的起点
径向运镜的镜头内框框中的内容,沉浸感深,而且结构简洁传递易懂的信息
DOLLAZ ON MY HEAD Song by Gunna
lyrics
Pull up with a stick, I pull up with a stick
I pull up with a pink toe, I'm whippin', she suckin' this dick
I put some diamonds on her toes, let that hoe know that I'm rich
We was used to pullin' kick doors (That money go for Myles)
I've been gettin' it since a toddler, I keep dollars on my head
Bein' a real one is my model, handle my problems, I ain't scared
I put Prada on my collar 'cause she proud of what I said
I'm a leader, I got 'em followin' my footsteps like the feds
I shoot like I'm Montana, chopper bullets make 'em shed, uh
Black on black new Phantom, in the backseat sippin' red, uh
Bitch, I'm from Atlanta where these hoes ride the dick like peg, yeah
Condo like the pharmacy, I got codeine in my fridge, pour up
My bro on a steamin' stove, cookin' crack like grits
Got this vibe on her tippy toes, strokin' her in a pent'
LA live, I'm stayin' at the Loews with this Hollywood bitch
Got a nine and a snubnose, can't wait to let it hit (Hit)
Pull up with a stick, I pull up with a stick
I pull up with a pink toe, I'm whippin', she suckin' this dick
I put some diamonds on her toes
Let that hoe know that I'm rich (Let that hoe know that I'm rich)
We was used to pullin' kick doors
You could still call it a lick (Lick)
You broke and can't be fixed
Went to Nieman's and spent a nick
How you pour that? Don't make sense
I made a whole mile off an inch
I had 99 problems
I just scratch you off the list (Scratch you off the list)
Got some millions and went and solved 'em
Now my neck cost a quarter brick
I've been gettin' it since a toddler, I keep dollars on my head
Bein' a real one is my model, handle my problems, I ain't scared
I put Prada on my collar 'cause she proud of what I said
I'm a leader, I got 'em followin' my footsteps like the feds
I shoot like I'm Montana, chopper bullets make 'em shed, uh
Black on black new Phantom, in the backseat sippin' red, uh
Bitch, I'm from Atlanta where these hoes ride the dick like peg, yeah
Condo like the pharmacy, I got codeine in my fridge, pour up
Bestie, bestie, I just hit my friend
Told her catch me, catch me, I'ma lick her skin
She so precious, precious, might not fuck again
She too messy, messy, but hittin', no flexin' (No flexin')
Rose gold ornaments (Rose)
Dropped the two tint, car came with no tint
You don't gotta use the door, you can hop in front of tip
Bond 9 in the vent, think 'bout dyin' and get spent
I got two B's on my boxers and a thottie in the bed
I know niggas ran up a milli'
Still didn't tell 12 shit (12, 12, 12, shh)
I got skeletons in my closets (Woah)
And they scared of me and shit (Closets and they scared)
Mason Margielas under the bed screamin', "Rock me, kid" (Woah)
I put water on my head, then she got seasick (I put water on my head)
Couple opps played dead, and they still got hit
I done bent lil' mama's spine but that
But that still ain't my kid (Still ain't my kid)
Only reason I answer my line (Why?)
Is 'cause she drink my spit (No cap)
I've been gettin' it since a toddler, I keep dollars on my head
Bein' a real one is my model, handle my problems, I ain't scared
I put Prada on my collar 'cause she proud of what I said
I'm a leader, I got 'em followin' my footsteps like the feds
I shoot like I'm Montana, chopper bullets make 'em shed, uh
Black on black new Phantom, in the backseat sippin' red, uh
Bitch, I'm from Atlanta where these hoes ride the dick like peg, uh
Condo like the pharmacy, I got codeine in my fridge
Gunna – Skybox
lyrics
Uh
Atares (Uh, uh, uh)
Gettin' high in the skybox, I can't see, yeah (See, yeah)
Hot spot and it's bust down, LSD, yeah (Yeah)
Smooth drive, hm, Gucci socks, yeah, I'm dripping (Dripping)
Fuck the cops, we can't be stopped, just admit it
Hey (Hey), hey (Hey), hey (Hey)
Put some diamonds in Chrome Hearts lens
Bought a new Benz, lost more friends
Stretchin' my hands, money all in
Fuckin' her friend, Birkin bag
Hunnids and tens, countin' they hands
Trust in God thing, keep an FN
I gotta go (Go), I gotta spend
I just want both, I drive a 'Ghin
Ain't got no note, ain't got no ring
I am a GOAT, I am a man (Yeah)
We in the low, we smokin' dope (Ah)
We keep it close, you with the folks (Oh)
You want the dose (Uh), give him some dope
Lil' bitty ho, you already know (You know)
Bitch, we the top of this iceberg, the top
You know that they copy you, woah (You, woah)
They cleanin', they moppin', these bitches
They hoppin', I couldn't fall out with it, bro
Uh, hotter than Turkey, I like it, I cop it
Ain't nobody stoppin' the Ghost (Nobody stoppin' the Ghost)
Smoke Lodi Dodi
We sittin' in the lobby, we just rented out the whole floor, uh
Gettin' high in the skybox, I can't see, yeah (See, yeah)
Hot spot and it's bust down, LSD, yeah (Yeah)
Smooth drive, hm, Gucci socks, yeah, I'm drippin' (Drippin')
Fuck the cops, we can't be stopped, just admit it (Admit it)
Paint the time (Time), slime couldn't made it (Made it)
Bloodhound (Hound), cold heart Crippin' (Cold heart Crippin')
Best part (Yeah), we got all of us with it (Vibes)
Head start (Start), you can't catch yourself or get it (Yeah)
That's no cap, I'm in the 'Ghini (Ah)
It's really rap, this ain't a gimmick (Ah)
I had to trap, now I got plenty
I'm in a castle fuckin' a genie (Genie)
I popped the capsule, she wanna rock some (Ah)
I done got tackled, drunk on the Henny (Henny)
Turned to a savage, I had a handle (Woah)
I'm 'bout to smack 'em, both on the fanny (Fanny)
I put four twelves in the V12 (Ooh)
My Benz truck started roar (Woah-woah)
She said she smell under well
Well I wanna fuck, it don't matter (Uh-uh)
Bitch, I'm a shark, you not a whale, lean in my cup and my bladder
I got it on lock like I'm in jail
As soon as they buck, they gettin' splattered (Get splattered)
I'm at the drop and no, I cannot fly
Comin' straight to the top like a ladder (A ladder)
Niggas play tough and they talk on the
Internet but they ain't ever gon' hit 'em
Uh, I took a loss and and they made me a boss
Like I'm no better than them (Better than them)
They call just to flops Biscotti
When I'm coughin', I'm trying to get higher than ever (High)
Gettin' high in the skybox, I can't see, yeah (See, yeah)
Hot spot and it's bust down, LSD, yeah (Yeah)
Smooth drive, hm, Gucci socks, yeah, I'm drippin' (Drippin')
Fuck the cops, we can't be stopped, just admit it (Admit it)
Paint the time (Time), slime couldn't made it (Made it)
Bloodhound (Hound), cold heart Crippin' (Cold heart Crippin')
Best part (Yeah), we got all of us with it (Vibes)
Head start (Start), you can't catch yourself or get it (Yeah)
https://music.apple.com/cn/song/nonviolent-communication/1690685863
https://music.apple.com/cn/album/metro-boomin-presents-spider-man-across-the-spider/1690685331
23年上半年,比较有空正好遇到SPIDER-MAN动画电影上映,提前好几天订好票,结果到了当天下了一天雨,晚上也一直不小的雨,走去五角场一路就在听这张album。
The album —— METRO BOOMIN PRESENTS SPIDER-MAN: ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE (SOUNDTRACK FROM AND INSPIRED BY THE MOTION PICTURE)很适合雨天,安静、思考。思考不同的经历,思考不同的SPIDER-MAN,一路走来,Gwen Stacy、MJ换了一个人又一个人,形象在变,又像是某种part-time job or relationship. 又或是不同的ex,从Bryce Dallas Howard到Emma Stone,还有Zendaya,动画版Hailee Steinfeld配音的,知道时候还是有些意外,因为Bumblebee的电影里面也是她出演,now with Josh Allen。从Gwen Stacy到Mary Jane (MJ)再到女蜘蛛侠 (Spider-Gwen),很多问题我都不知道答案。
Likely you had some MJs or Gwens before, that's good but the only difference is that in actual life their fates cannot be scripted like they did in the movies saying that she's his one of one for the rest.
You was my then
And you my now
审视的代价:为何品味无法“局部开启”
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We aspire to have this Critical Taste. Yet, there is a fundamental misunderstanding about what having "taste" actually requires.
We often believe we can be selectively critical—that we can be a rigorous judge of high art or theoretical physics from 9 to 5, and then switch off that discernment to become a passive, easy-going observer of life the rest of the time.
But the reality is: You can never be partially critical.
选择性敏感的迷思
Discernment is not a tool you pick up; it is a lens through which you view the world. If you possess the capacity to distinguish the profound from the mediocre in art, you inherently possess the capacity to distinguish quality from lack thereof in everything else.
To have "Unique Taste" is to have a heightened sensitivity to nuance. It is the ability to detect misalignment, lack of harmony, or laziness in execution.
You cannot train your mind to be hyper-alert to the nuances of a canvas or a hypothesis and expect it to be blind to the nuances of a conversation, a meal, or the architecture of a street. The neural pathways that allow for deep critical thinking in one domain are the same ones that process your daily reality.
这是一个整体的过程
This is why the "man of taste" is often viewed as difficult or hyper-critical. It is not out of malice; it is out of consistency.
Critical thinking is a holistic process. It is a state of being, perhaps driven by an Internal Necessity (Innerer Notwendigkeit). Once the internal standard is set, it applies universally.
If you demand truth in philosophy, you will likely be intolerant of small talk that lacks substance.
If you demand precision in science, you will notice the inefficiency in a chaotic queue.
If you demand harmony in art, you will be physically jarred by a poorly designed living space.
批判性思维的重负
We must accept that having a critical eye is a package deal. We cannot ask for the genius of unique insight without accepting the burden of constant judgment.
To be critical of art but uncritical of life is a contradiction. It suggests that your taste is merely a performance—a hat you wear—rather than an intrinsic part of your nature. True taste is involuntary. It is a relentless scanning for truth and quality.
Therefore, we should stop apologizing for being critical of "everything." It is not negativity; it is the inevitable side effect of a mind that is constantly seeking the "better," the "truer," and the "more beautiful."
You cannot curate the world selectively. You either see the cracks in everything, or you see them in nothing.
I choose me, I'm sorry.
当下是真喜欢GeorgesStPierre这种风格,inner peace. 甚至听一些content都喜欢听陶哲轩和Demis Hassabis这种,虽然Terence Tao说的一些数学概念和理论假设逻辑我都听不太懂,但是语速和节奏都很舒服,感到peaceful。
Demis Hassabis则常表达一些积极的信息,总让人心悦和充满希望,可能这就是这里的free air吧。人生路线规划是如此清晰 先生物学神经 再物理,智慧勇敢
今年扎堆频繁的interview
无论如何 都不会独行(especially in a conver w a Liverpool), 静水流深
很多时候祖辈或许是最智慧、最幸福的,尤其是小时候书本上或者生活里教的;不知道太多知识,但是固执地明白知识改变命运,在这两件事上莫名地就是像出厂默认设置一样的坚定又正确;就生老病死,部分人的一生简单清闲,如果再有些廉价清净的爱好,书画琴棋,简简单单的一生其实才是“大智若愚”,没有纷扰,自由地享受了这场life journey,安安静静地享受天伦之乐,真的将attention给到真正爱的人,认真爱过,也真的活过。不像很多the rich,商业、煤矿老板,达官贵人,诚惶诚恐地偷偷摸摸偷的、攒了一堆,先是追求钱权,被上级践踏,熬过头了再继续欺负下一波人,腐蚀。有点像龟兔赛跑,后者看似体面,所谓的人生赢家,但是事实上没有参加比赛的人赢了,在比赛没开始的时候就赢了,因为他本身就在终点。
想了想,想法稍纵即逝的,还是记下:昨天晚上睡觉前想爷爷奶奶,主要是先从生活风格想起的,只想要peaceful life,只想安安静静和亲爱的人度过life time,想到冬天悠闲地晒太阳,想到夏天愉悦地乘阴凉,偶尔下午抱着西瓜边吃边看东边天边慢慢飘向西边无比洁白的云彩,远处四五层楼高的大树在风穿过时候发出的沙沙声音。同时和爷爷奶奶聊聊见闻,说说学校发生的事,谈谈学习情况。就这样的生活想起来也没有多么“昂贵”,很幸福,都很幸运,能够和平、自由地呼吸、享受这样的一分一秒,及其容易实现,但现在同样令我感受到难得、昂贵。下午跑步,同样预设的还是一张album的时间,所以就点开从头播放《DAMN》,KDOT多次说奶奶死了以后Ain't nobody pray for me. 想起来前不久刚提到过的,Kanye也说妈妈死之后就无需害怕。 #Bond
慢慢开始,数字清理之后娱乐性(主要是体育和音乐industry)unfollow很多,只有对个别感兴趣,没有将注意力随随便便支付给不太相关的球队,社区盾 、联赛杯、卡拉宝之类的比赛,一般都只看结果,不太花费时间。更多还是专注于技术和个人提升。还有一种,在最近很多要求grok魔改一些social posts之后,深刻地感受到似乎很久之后刷social media也没啥意义了,很多都能fake,就连Alex Perira 和Cotez这种合照第一眼看到都是以为假新闻恶搞的AI照片。可能过段时间之后Instagram也会受到影响,唯一的护城河就是自己现实认识的那些人,但是social这东西总会有fake的,就算没有AI,也有摄影棚一样假的日韩、北欧打卡点,需要的人还是会需要的,但是重要的人就是身边的人,不需要online social
…“Im sorry that I live a boring life, i love peace” - Kendrick Lamar. ‘
同时jcole在一首track里面也表达了自己公开道歉以后就从TOP3跌落了,很敏感,当初也说了disrupt my fucking peace. Exactly,就是这种突然失重坠落的感觉,一下悬在空中无依无靠。
一元钱梦想还在继续
legacy也是永恒的话题 越接近退役越是重视自己盖棺定论的排名 某种程度为了蹭 出现了双骄 三巨头TOP3 F4 四大XX XX五虎 XX六小X XX七剑 XX八大金刚 XX九大魔王 XX十代天骄
Ur goat team with no one
Gatekeeping

QUOTE: Terence tao is my Steph and Demis is my LeBron.
Career Strategy For People With Too Many Interests (The M-Shaped Future )
有没有智能眼镜什么的 或者其他方法可以在思考时候不用动手动嘴记录下思考成果的
太快了 有个想法 然后大脑就code agent命令行自己调试即可 验证想法 人只做supervision和review
前面偶然看到一个app产品叫typeless,顾名思义不用键盘打字来记忆信息的,似乎。而且主要是加入AI,可以将语音草稿整理为完整文字。很早之前就在找这种类似的东西,主要为了双手不方便记录的时候能够及时记录下,比如很多做实验的时候,会有新的意识像海边的浪一样游荡而来,但是没办法记录,或者一些即时现象。另外还可以弄一些prompt,就像黑箱transfer一样,能够将人们交流的信息密度低的废话直接转换为一句真话,比如Conor的那句“His question is why you talking shit” You is the man
经常想起Conor的那句话,You do what you're told. 对Mike这样嘲讽,对很多人都说过。
虽然人很难评价,小鸟掉哑铃DM骚扰女明星被曝光,但是互联网炸了但很难有记忆。但是就You do what you're told. 这句话而言,他的本性使得他这样表现,高傲使得他在高位暴露出真实想法,这句话是很多“上面人”大多时候心里会浮现的想法和表达。场景只限于社交吗? 并不是,甚至很少能遇到这种“上位”还真实的人,更多时候是关于生活的信息流,信息差。main stream:You do what you're told. 师傅教徒弟:You do what you're told. Info can be edited. 可以被shape 也可以建立自己的护城河。
偶尔有一次的半夜醒来再难以入睡 大脑像是很久没熬夜一样的莫名兴奋 这时候让我也意识到大脑似乎是和躯体分离的 大脑更像是寄生于body的另一种生物
AI的前夜 图书馆自己敲代码 见证到有人惊呼 家教路上方便的colab
人也即书 一个人就是一本书 不只是experience 还有insights soul 有内容的 是有趣 像马克吐温的作品
Google's year in review: 8 areas with research breakthroughs in 2025
就像有次单读或者读库系列里面有一篇章主要写衡水高中生活一样,可以近距离窥探peers的life,社会纪实,更加现实有触感
-- 曼纽尔·布卢姆(Manuel Blum),图灵奖得主
"Defense-Counter" ( counter-attacks 防反 防守反击) is not just a tactic in sports; it is a supreme philosophical stance. It is the art of non-reaction.
In a world addicted to noise and instant response, the ultimate power move is to remain chemically stable—like a column of Inert Gas (Noble Gas). You do not combust when the spark lands. You wait. You observe. And when the opponent over-extends, you end it.
Most losses—in the ring, in business, or in culture—come from overreaction.
To be "Overreactive" is to leak energy. It is to hand the remote control of emotions to your opponent.
Tank Davis vs. Ryan Garcia: This was the triumph of precision over volume. Ryan was the storm; Tank was the wall. Tank didn't need to throw 100 punches. He needed one timing window. "Tank击穿Ryan". He waited for the liver to be exposed for a fraction of a second. That represents the Critical Taste applied to violence—selectivity.
2025: Jiří Procházka vs. Jamahal Hill: This is the Flow State. Jiří abandoned the rigid guard for pure instinct. By emptying the mind, he became a mirror.
J. Cole (Jocle): His choice to "fold" and apologize was mocked by the masses, but through the lens of Inert Gas, it was the ultimate defense. He realized the battle was a distraction from his peace. He refused to be reactive sequentially. K-Dot,he let the opponent talk, let the opponent reveal their messy life, and then surgically dismantled them. He didn't spray and pray; he sniped.
Whether it is art, fighting, or debate, the principle remains the same: He who reacts first, loses control. He who waits, owns the outcome.
True mastery is not about being the loudest or the fastest. It is about being the most stable thing in a chaotic room.
2026年1月1日新年音乐会:
2026年1月9日,今天又比较惊喜的一次:打开Gemini试图让它会想起之前讨论的一件事的时候,它首先召集了一个workspace,thinking的地方显示又gmail drive和sheets, 然后它不仅回想起来交互内容,还查找到我的相关邮件。shit, 账户并没有开启隐私模式,这似乎也说明我的邮件内容甚至都能被cloud调取看到?Gmail 深入整合 Gemini AI
一瞬间欣喜2026年1月27日00点10分:突然在思考一个问题时候想起了一个遥远的问题,二者可以联系解决。首先第一瞬间的感慨是Gemini打不过我~ AI或许、看起来头脑风暴会无敌,因为电脑对于人脑的内存优势是宇宙级的,但是很多时候是那种正确又不疼不痒的,毕竟他会联想调用,但目前还没有从实际世界学习这部分,人脑得到的真的是让人欣喜又正确有用的。
"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything."
— Plato
早上醒来看到Prism发布,又一段供应链被取代接管,可以预见在未来Latex上手成本、门槛降低后会更普及化,类似和quarto一样,慢慢会占领上游。
2026/01/13 21:09 似乎靠想象想好了在进产房开始的时候我该干什么 我想会在外面写一些话 不知道和谁对话 可能有些承载交流的功能 也可能纯记录这个过程 或许这是生命中唯一一次的希望按下暂停键 什么都不重要 太阳明天还会不会升起来也和我无关 我只想我们心灵紧紧相连 想起来Elon让国际象棋冠军Magnus Carlsen多生孩子 哈哈 乐于奉献应该是很被重视地刻在我们的基因里 怀胎十月 , hardworking 虽然现在还能在这里思考和联想 但如果实际上现实发生 容易想到我可能不会这么冷静 还能形成完整的句子这样的表达 脑子可能一群蚂蚁在爬 假如我真的又能这么想对冷静地思考 那我又该如何辩解这样的心流
Friedrich Nietzsche on walking:Never trust a thought that occurs to you indoors.
耗费时间在一些礼崩乐坏的内容,讨论一些personal 经历,无论是所谓comedy还是podcast , 不止是低俗,主要是低级, 没有进化一样
准备制作个写作tracker,将写作时间字数统计之后部署在GitHub主页上,瞎搞半天,然后发现这个活以前就干过,三四年不用全忘光了,又在埋头造轮子……
20点08分,正在专注沉浸地看,然后突然想起来我现在在这本来是为了看曼市德比,突然撒开环抱胸前地双臂,从椅子靠背上弹了起来去新网页tab……
互联网上常有go viral的很多著名的“幻觉”的图片,比如“赫尔曼格子幻觉”,这种图片不仅利用了视网膜的局部效应,还涉及大脑的全局神经处理,挑战了较早的Baumgartner理论。但是纯给LLM看,就是像素点数值的矩阵,明白是什么,但是没有生理方面产生的幻觉,纯是信息数值。
跳出当下,右滑时间轴,或许像LeCun认为那样,LLM尽管在当下几乎横扫一切,但是从时间、进化的尺度上来看,是对于搜索信息的技术进步,并没有产生多少令人惊艳的intelligence,只是整体信息调度搜索的能力随算力发展有了更广阔的舞台大展拳脚,maybe there's still a long way to go forward.
硅基“文明”发展的路上,人类代表着地球上最智慧的物种一直在不断地针对硅基进行创新,这个过程同时也在认识我们自己这个种群,研究信息的传导机制,信号的处理,反过来引导我们对自己的认识。但虽然我们是最智慧的,但是我们却代表不了地球上所有的生命,因为地球上生物都各有特色,尽管我们中的很多share一些相同的特质。看到视频里面手能断掉独立操作运行,我意识到至少我们永远不可能做到这样,某些身体部位可以独立于大脑控制而运行,尽管有些动物可以,但是相对于机器而言,所谓细思极恐。
A paper in Nature Communications describes a detachable robotic hand that can crawl and grab objects. The design enables tasks such as retrieving objects beyond normal reach and performing multi-object handling. https://t.co/YBjGWRBUmI pic.twitter.com/b45MkeRu2V
— Nature Portfolio (@NaturePortfolio) January 23, 2026

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